Unreality

I was on a roof deck in Belltown last night. I was looking around me at all of the buildings. They are all so tall. I couldn't believe the black glass on this one building. I couldn't believe the shape of these buildings. I looked at my friends and I told them I felt like I was in a Star War movie. Like I was in some fantasy world.

Sometimes the world around me feels so unfamiliar. Because when I really think about what it is, how it happened, how I happened within it, it all becomes completely strange and unfamiliar. Nothing feels self-evident or natural. Complete confusion.

But that is the perspective I would prefer to have. One in which novelty is hard to avoid. It is interesting, though, how I don't always have that view. Sometimes I'm wrapped up in the humdrum of my life. Things are ordinary and I drift without much thought.

But lately I've been pretty startled. Paying attention is easier.

Time is passing more slowly.

I don't know what I'm doing. It is funny.